Today is my 65th birthday. It’s my entry into official senior citizenship. There, I said it. Although I have mixed feelings about it, I’m mostly one with the aging process. It’s only a number as my mother always says. Under normal circumstances, I would be celebrating this milestone with family and friends, but in the times of COVID19, we know that’s not happening. Holidays without my family are difficult, but I’m trying to push through my big feelings. Here’s how it’s going so far.
Thank goodness for the internet! I’ve received messages from near and far including friends from previous schools I worked at, all of my children and their spouses, and friends in Kuwait. I’ve had messages from the U.S., Thailand, Canada, Lebanon, Kuwait, and Ghana on WhatsApp, Signal, Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter. I even received a video from my son-in-law playing a beautiful piece on the piano. During our weekly Zoom on Saturday, my kids surprised me with birthday backgrounds, including from my grand doggies, and a fun game of family Jeopardy. Yesterday, during our weekly Skype, my brother, sister, and mother wished me a happy birthday also. And today, a lovely card from my husband and he hugged me (he’s not a hugger so it’s a big deal).
Since we are under a partial curfew (6 p.m.-5 a.m.) and I’m not fully vaccinated yet we aren’t going out, there aren’t any plans to celebrate the occasion. I decided to make my own birthday cake to make the day seem more festive, or at least so I feel it’s different than other days. As you can see in the photo below, I took the easy way out and made a chocolate layer cake recipe into cupcakes. Since my husband and I can’t eat them all (well we could but we won’t), I figured cupcakes will be easier to share with my neighbors.
I’m giving myself grace and time to work through my feelings of isolation and sadness and pushing myself to remember what I’m grateful for, so I can change my mood. It’s rather yucky to spend a whole birthday feeling down. I certainly don’t want to remember March 29, 2021 like that! So I’m writing this all down, framing my big feelings, and I’m already feeling a bit better. I know I’ll feel better once I bite into that dark chocolate cupcake!
To those who are reading this and have wished me a happy birthday already, thank you. To those who will wish me happy birthday after reading this, thank you. I’m not expecting any gifts, but if you’d like to donate on my behalf, please consider https://preemptivelove.org or https://www.liftinghandsinternational.org



